I keep reading blogs of moms who have been sending their kindergartners off to school for the first time and the kids wave and say "See ya, Mom!" and off they go to their classrooms. This is NOT one of those blogs. In June I took Jordan to his Kindergarten screening. It didn't go so well. I literally forced him into the car, and took him to the school while he was kicking, screaming, and spitting. Yes, spitting. I carried him into the school with no shoes (he kicked them off). He wasn't crying anymore at this point, just shaking uncontrollably and covering his face. It was really sad actually. Jordan is a really sweet boy and he doesn't throw temper tantrums...he's just terrified. Especially of going to school. Needless to say, we didn't finish the screening and I was told to bring him back at the end of summer. Today was the dreaded day.
Last night Jordan was given a blessing to help him (us) out today. I was pretty optimistic. I've been hyping up this day all summer, I even told him I'd postpone his last immunization booster if he'd do this. I actually thought he was going to surprise me and toughen up. Wishful thinking. It pretty much started the same as last time (yep, the shoes were even kicked off again) except he never stopped crying. I had to literally hold him because he kept trying to run for the door. Everyone was looking at me and my out of control child. A sweet teacher's aid asked me if it'd be okay if she just took Jordan and maybe he'd calm down if he was away from me. It took 2 teachers to hold Jordan while I crept off to the library for the orientation. My eyes were swelling with tears as I heard his screams get further down the hall. Fifteen minutes went by and I hadn't heard anything. Could he really be calmed down cooperating? I was almost feeling the sweet sense of relief when I felt a tap on the shoulder. The sweet teacher's aid was crouched behind me. "You should come out....He's not doing very well." I walked out to find Jordan sitting on a bench his eyes swollen from crying and hiccuping little silent sobs.
Later that day his teacher called me. She asked me if I'd like to bring Jordan back in to visit while there were no kids there. After bribing him with a new pair of shoes and a promise to play on the playground, Marcus, Tanner and I went to the school. Tanner LOVED the school. He wanted to start that very day! He didn't want to leave. This made Jordan feel a little more comfortable and he even perked up a little bit.
So tomorrow is Step Up day. I'm supposed to ride the bus with him and go to school with him. Why am I torturing him/me!? If I hold him back he'll start school with Tanner and I don't want to do that to him. Wish me luck!
Last night Jordan was given a blessing to help him (us) out today. I was pretty optimistic. I've been hyping up this day all summer, I even told him I'd postpone his last immunization booster if he'd do this. I actually thought he was going to surprise me and toughen up. Wishful thinking. It pretty much started the same as last time (yep, the shoes were even kicked off again) except he never stopped crying. I had to literally hold him because he kept trying to run for the door. Everyone was looking at me and my out of control child. A sweet teacher's aid asked me if it'd be okay if she just took Jordan and maybe he'd calm down if he was away from me. It took 2 teachers to hold Jordan while I crept off to the library for the orientation. My eyes were swelling with tears as I heard his screams get further down the hall. Fifteen minutes went by and I hadn't heard anything. Could he really be calmed down cooperating? I was almost feeling the sweet sense of relief when I felt a tap on the shoulder. The sweet teacher's aid was crouched behind me. "You should come out....He's not doing very well." I walked out to find Jordan sitting on a bench his eyes swollen from crying and hiccuping little silent sobs.
Later that day his teacher called me. She asked me if I'd like to bring Jordan back in to visit while there were no kids there. After bribing him with a new pair of shoes and a promise to play on the playground, Marcus, Tanner and I went to the school. Tanner LOVED the school. He wanted to start that very day! He didn't want to leave. This made Jordan feel a little more comfortable and he even perked up a little bit.
So tomorrow is Step Up day. I'm supposed to ride the bus with him and go to school with him. Why am I torturing him/me!? If I hold him back he'll start school with Tanner and I don't want to do that to him. Wish me luck!
4 comments:
Stop it right now. I hated reading this even though I already knew it. That boy is the sweetest thing on the planet and THAT is why it's so hard to hear. He's not being naughty or spoiled. He's just scared. He gets that from his mom, just so you know... ;)
Hey... have you tried xanax?!? I hear it works wonders for MRI's, plane trips, dentist visits, talking in public, or when there is no one to rub your big toe against... ew. Sorry. This isn't funny. I have my serious face on again.
Poor guy! My mom said all of her kids were the same way when they had to start school. Hang in there!
Oh no thats too bad Sarah you must be so upset as well. It is so hard to see you child scared. He is so sweet and he will probably come around once he meets some new friends at school. Hang in there.
Lil Bobby did not want to go either and he cried a ton and I frlt horrible. Nicole was like Tanner she could not wait.
Peggy
I think this would hurt my heart too much...I'd probably home school the pumpkin.
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